2023/changes

Hello beautiful💛     

Soo i honestly don't really know what happened but 2023 was so intense for me. It started right after the eclipse in April. I just remember suddenly feeling so exhausted but like never before. And whatever i did was not helping..

I got back at my old job in the office for the 3th time. Started after i was 19 years and traveled and came back so turning 28, i really did not want to go back again but i felt called to go there. Through this extreme exhaustion i just had energy to go do what i had to do and after just rest. I still was like why, again this job and people everything was the same but only I was not the same at all. Then i got a strong message that said, just sit back and observe everything that’s present.

Wow! I suddenly realized i was going like a crazy obsessive person only wanting to grow and never stopped to see how far i have actually already come.
Most people where still the same creating drama, stories, worries and i am a completely different person in the ways i handle things, express myself and am able to let go of all unnecessary. Also with my friends there where Huge shifts, it was not aligning anymore.. i really had to stop and slow the fuck down to become aware of everything. To fully integrate.

Then after new year on 01/01/2024 literally everything that’s wasn't aligned just fell away. I truly honored how i felt and spoke my truth, and instead of believing those toxic energies and thinking there is something wrong with me, I am finally able to discern and say HELL NO, not allowing those toxic believes anymore!! And all the fake people just fell away.

I still have so much to learn but this is huge for me. I truly needed to be so extremely exhausted to slow down so much and just observe and rest. I didn't even had energy to write in my journal. I am so happy to feel myself coming back🤗

Now i'm coming back to myself, taking my time. I am where i am and that’s Okay. I am ready to open my heart and connect. I just wasn't before. I know i can't do this alone but that was all i ever knew. I still challenge with allowing all the love in, receiving, but i am here still and never left.❤️

Sending so much love to whomever is reading these words💖